And while I share some of my thoughts with you all, let me treat you to a few pictures of my studio that has officially made the move from creatively messy to just plain messy! It's a colorful mess, but it's still a big, big mess!
I have begun the very gratifying task of de-cluttering and organizing (some of the piles on the floor are a result of that process). I hope in a few days I can show you the "after cleanup" pictures...
Growing up I always felt severely different from everyone else - my interests, my thoughts, my feelings - I always felt like I was somehow not measuring up. To what I didn't know. My most fervent wish was to be "normal." And I'd find myself trying to conform so that I'd be accepted somehow. I still do that, but now I can catch myself in the act.
So, why do I try to hard to fit in? To conform to some standard I have no idea what it is? What is so scary about standing out and being extraordinary? Even this blog is already a stretch for me. Sharing these thoughts is a stretch. I've spent a lifetime trying to blend in somehow, not very successfully, but I was trying.
And in this I've come a long way! And maybe some day I don't have to be so consciously aware of it every day. Maybe some day I will just be "me" all the time. I'm looking forward to that...
In the meantime, I so appreciate you all being here in blogland. I have learned so much from you and keep being inspired by your lives, your posts, your creative projects and the comments you leave here. Thank you!!