Ok, this is going to be a girly post and for those of you not interested, I've posted some photos we took on a recent trip to Denver, Colorado. Daniel's dear aunt passed away, to whom we were both very close. So, it definitely was a bittersweet visit.
The sweet part was seeing family and friends and being in beautiful Colorado. We miss living out West so much!
Now to my post. I know some of you are too young for this, but some of you have already gone through it and I am hoping for some of your humor and wisdom.
I seem to be entering peri-menopause (yes, The Change is happening) and feel like I am traveling through a strange and confusing land.
Actually, I am reminded of the strangeness of my teenage years, when everything seemed so dramatic and out of proportion. Now that I am older I know that it's only my hormones messing with me ~ back then I really thought my world was ending about five times a day.
Here's the strange part for me. I suddenly feel so emotional and actually fragile. I had to miss the last two episodes of Downton Abbey (a show I love) because it was just too sad for me.
I just want to hole up at home where it's cozy and quiet with some tea and my knitting. Everything else seems too much for me at the moment. It's bizarre! I've always been the strong one. The one to whom everyone tells their problems.
What is happening?! Ok, I know what's happening... But how long will this last?!
The weird part is - I know it's shifting hormones and not the "real" me, but still it's happening.
Don't get me wrong, I'm quite happy - I just have to be way more cautious of what I do and read and watch. Right now, I cannot watch the news at all and so I don't. I can't drink caffeine (it makes me anxious), so I don't. It seems to take more effort to maintain my equilibrium.
All in all, it's not bad, just totally unsettling.
As to painting, I haven't painted in days, but know I'll get back to it. I am knitting a lot and cooking quite a bit. And reading. And spending time with Daniel and our pets.
It's also a little explanation of why I am blogging so haphazardly these days. Life seems sort of haphazard at the moment.
Still, I love blogging and am so appreciative of you all!! Being connected to you makes my journey so much more joyful!