Friday, January 4, 2013

Feeling unsettled

With Ramses purring on my lap, I am thinking about yesterday afternoon and how unsettled I had felt. All afternoon. I had free time to do whatever I wanted to do ~ paint, knit, sew, nap, read, watch a movie, blog etc. Yet I couldn't find my place. Do you ever feel that way?
Another postcard soon on it's way to a new home
One of our neighbors stopped by for a wrench as they are moving the last things out of their house. It occurred to me that everyone immediately around us is moving. That in itself is not unusual here in the US, as we are a very mobile society.

What is unusual is that we aren't the ones moving. For the first time, we are the ones staying and I have to admit I don't know how to feel about that. Daniel and I have gypsy blood in our veins and have - up to now - moved about every three years, if not to a new town, then to a new house. We've now been here for six years and it feels odd.

Is this it? Forever more? Are there any new adventures out there for us? Of course, I know the answers to all of those questions - after all, all of life is an adventure and nothing ever stays the same. And the biggest adventure lies in going inward, not moving around on the outside.

But I guess for today, I am trying to figure out how to feel settled not just on the outside, but in my emotions as well. How to grow while staying in place...



  1. I can so relate to this post, Silke, and I hope that you became more settled as the day wore on.

    "How to grow while staying in place..." such great words to ponder this year as I contemplate retiring from a decade of teaching. I want to always grow - to be a life long learner, but I fear that I have burnt out on this particular phase of life. I suppose I am looking to feel settled as well.

  2. Sometimes, at this time of year, I think feeling unsettled is part of the landscape.
    Old year gone, new year started, possibilities ahead and after a holiday of our time being totally rearranged, it is hard to get past the unsettled and move into our routines again, plus any changes we want to make.
    After a life of growing up in the Military, and a few moves since, I suppose we are here to stay. I will say though, having most of the folks around you moving is unsettling in itself.
    Focus will kick in soon.....and I have always felt if we're supposed to end up elsewhere, it's just going to *happen*.
    Trust is full of!


  3. Yes, Silke, I do have those times of feeling unsettled & frustrated with having the time but not the focus to Do what I want to do...Then they pass, & other times, there is focus. I have been in one house for years, but am reflecting on some of the questions that you mention. It's a lovely postcard there.

  4. Liebe Silke, vielleicht ist es das, stehenbleiben, aushalten der Unsicherheit und erkennen, was ist und was noch gebraucht wird. Ich habe die Erfahrung gemacht, machmal ist stehenbleiben besser als davonlaufen. Liebe Grüße, Inge